The Alternatives

Ever since they gave us a warning about using YM here in the office I diverted myself to something else such as blogging, emailing, and customizing sites. Yes, I know I don’t blog here every single day but I have recently revived my LJ account (I don’t blog there every single day too but at least it’s being updated regularly) xDxD;;

I chat via email, and I spend my time bloghopping and customizing random account I have. I have customized my imeem, friendster, and multiply so far. I’m slowly working on my LJ layout next. Hahaha. I’m not good when it comes to customizing LJ layouts so I might need some help here. LOL. I’ve been searching and reading LJ layout tutotirals since this morning and I haven’t succeeded into coming up with a good decent layout yet. I know I’m slow with this LJ stuff but what the heck. *w*

I recently wanting to change my multiply ID for I don’t know why because I’m tired of the name but… I don’t know… maybe it isn’t a good idea afterall since my my multiply contains a fair amount of stuff in it and I’m too lazy to transfer all of them. So.. I’m not really sure what to do with that. LOL xD;

Domain-wise, things are pretty okay…. I have three new hostees! Tinze, Mabel, and Mika. ♥. I believe that they’re not yet done with their sites… Visit them nonetheless!ü Oh yes, DA! DA! DA! Please message meeee! I swear I notified you that I’m changing domain!!! ;_; I’m sorry na oooo…

Can’t help it.

I may not know his name or his exact age or his number. He may not know I even exist but, I can’t help it… I like him. I’m not the one who stole this picture for I do not have the courage to do it. I have this on my phone ever since that picture was taken and since then, I haven’t had a real glimpse of his face nor his smile. I know I sound so…. hopeless but I really can’t help it.

If you guys know this guy, please contact me asap. He have stolen my heart. :]]

P.S. He looks much more nicer in person. hahaha! So go visit him at his shop!!!

The beautiful sunset

“The beautiful sunset” — with lens flare. :]]

Today is friday the 13th. Unlucky? I don’t think so! So far so good! Let me put it this way, the CATS ARE AWAY (ALMOST ALL DAY!) so WE get to enjoy the whole freaking office STRESS-FREE! (And almost workless since there are no JOs left to work on!!!).

I know I wasn’t able to tell everyone how bitchy my week was last week but yeah, last week was one hell of bitchy week for me. The OT I did last monday was a very bad omen of the series of unfortunte events that happened last week including several death stories and personal problems — not to mention work problems. Anyway, this week is way different from last week.

Like what I’ve mentioned earlier, this week is stress-free and the workload is lighter. :] Hooray!♥ Thus, the lighter workload resulted to this new layout (after being hiatus for ages!) and a tweaked my multiply layout too. ^^.

Oh and I was able to upload every single photo I have on my phone memory! Here are some of them:

Oh yeah, just in case you are all wondering what the heck are those…. obviiously, the first one features red and green m&m’s, second, third, and fourth photos are pictures of my fabricated designs and the last photo is a photo of another sunset with our blinds on. And I have a new hostee! Her name is Mabel :] I’m not sure whether she’s done or not. :] Anyway, visit her if you have the time!

Dear you,

Dear you,

I’m sorry I wasn’t able to go be with you the whole time you were in the hospital undergoing treatments. And I’m sorry that I couldn’t help with the expenses. I love you so much and I’d exchange everything I have just to make you happy.

Anyway, thank you for today’s treat! I love my new yellow nails to bits!!! You’re the best girlfriend I have and I really really love you mum.ü

xoxo, me*

P.S. Why the sudden change of you wanting me to find a bf already? It sounds so weird.

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Dear you,

I just want to tell you that I know who you really are already! Thank you so much for the great show you had provided me, I was really entertained. It opened my eyes and heart to a lot of possibilities and help me realize my capability of differentiating a front act from reality. That was quite a show and see? I’m so good with this.

From everything you’ve told me before, I’ve realized that the only really thing you’ve said to me was: Nobody loves you and nobody wants you. Even you’re family I suppose? Oh, Why would you be somebody else if you like yourself in the first place? So does that mean that even you don’t like or love or wanmt your own self? Ouch but true. I pity you that you can’t have somebody that’ll accept you for who you really are without you BUYING them and showering them with gifts. I’m happy for you that you finally found somebody who would greatly receive all your gifts. WOW! The thing is, will she accept you for who you REALLY REALLY ARE? I wonder and that I gotta see! Haha!

When will you remove that mask of yours? You can’t wear that forever, you know. Hahaha! I can’t believe that a person such as you really do exist BUT it’s sad that you’re way low than the person you portray to exist. How long will you continue living that kind of life? Forever? Hah! You WISH! I remember that you used to make me hate your ex for making you look like a manipulator and someone really really really bad — and you know what? SHE IS RIGHT!

You don’t deserve how people see you because that’s NOT REALLY YOU. You’re coward enough not the let people see you, the helpless little you. And you are coward enough not to accept who you really are and what God has given you. Why do you want to be somebody else anyway? Diba, you have everything already? Yes, I used to be so envy because you seem to be so perfect but then I realized that I shouldn’t be because I’m much more real than you and the people I love love me for it and that I don’t have to treat them regularly or buy them expensive gifts just to make them like me — UNLIKE YOU! BLEH! :p

You’re so lucky that I have to waste my time to type this thing about you but then I want you (if ever you get to read this) and everyone around us know who you really are!

xoxo, the wonderful me*

Overtime

I hate it whenever I OT on MONDAYS. Like now.